Smile!

Thanks for your excitement on my last post! I have to admit, I'm pretty excited about it too. Ben and I really get along--last night we talked on the phone for an hour, and the night before it was 3 hours!--and I feel like he is my best friend and so much more. I want to still take things slow, but since we used to be best friends my freshman and sophomore years of college, it's almost like we've been dating that long!

Anyway, Ben is coming to visit me on Monday! Unfortunately he has to work all weekend, but that's ok. Monday we are going to go shopping for books (we want to start a book club and read & discuss books together), go out to lunch, and then he wants to cook dinner for my family! It's super cute.

I think things are going to go well. I don't want to jinx the situation, but I feel like this guy is...different. With other boyfriends, I always felt a sort of disconnect in some way. But this time, I feel like I am physically, mentally, and emotionally attracted to him. So, we'll see where it goes!

I also want to add a side note: I know that some of my lovely blogger friends have been having a hard time in the romance department lately, and I want you to know I totally understand. I've been there, honestly. I've spent many a lonely night crying and chastising myself for being ugly, fat, and worthless. But I am starting to realize that only once I started becoming comfortable being independent did I get more male attention. It's silly but true. Granted, I am definitely not 100% confident in myself, and my body image is less than acceptable. However, I learned to deal with things on my own and I realize that my worth is NOT dependent on a guy. Even if B and I don't work out, I know that I'll still have my #1 best friend--ME.

Have a lovely weekend, ladies. I am off to therapy, then a little shindig tonight with my Mama. Then this weekend I will probably go shopping, go to Power Yoga on Sunday (YES! I'm allowed to now!!!), work on homework, and prepare for Benjamin's arrival Monday morning! :-)

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I hope you all manage to do something fun and indulgent for yourselves this weekend, whether it's girl's night, date night, or a me, myself, & i night!

Good Things Come to Those Who Wait!

Oh boy, do I have lots to talk about! Where to even begin?!.....

Well, Valentine's Day was a great success. A few hitches but altogether amazing.

So, my Valentine was Ben (B from one of my recent posts). He is the one that took me to a 50's style diner a few weeks ago. We've known each other for about 3 years. We started out as close friends who worked together and then both of us developed feelings for one another, but the timing was never right. I was 18 and he was 19, and we were both just kind of young and stupid and not ready for a commitment.

So anyway, recently he and I have been talking on the phone, texting, etc, and he asked if I wanted to meet up for Valentine's Day on Sunday night, so I said sure why not! He works as an EMT in the town where Susquehanna U. is (he graduated in May), and I live in the Baltimore area, so we decided to meet halfway in Harrisburg, PA. Ben had to go to his little brother's 4th birthday party during the day (he is the oldest of 5 boys! yikes!), so we decided to meet up around 6:30 p.m. for dinner and a movie.

Well, it ended up being after 7 when we finally met up because Ben got caught in a HUGE traffic jam. So, I ended up driving a little farther and we met at the parking lot of a McDonald's (romantic, right? hahaha). I hopped into his car, where 2 mixed CDs were waiting, as well as some adorable handmade presents and cards. I left my car in the parking lot and then he drove to a movie theater about 30 miles away. We spontaneously chose "From Paris, With Love", which is an action movie with John Travolta, but I am honestly into that kind of thing so I was excited.

During the movie, we ended up holding hands and it was cute. Then, when we exited the theater (it was past 11:00pm at this point), it was snowing! So romantic!

Then, we were both suuuper hungry so we went to a McDonald's drive-thru since it was the only thing nearby that was still open on a Sunday night. And you know what? I got an M&M McFlurry which I proceeded to finish in 5 minutes, plus I had some of Ben's french fries! And I felt absolutely ZERO guilt. It wasn't "clean", it was filled with "empty calories", but you know what? Being with him was so much fun and we had such wonderful conversation that the food didn't even matter. I even opened up to him about all of my struggles and he was incredibly understanding and sweet about it.

When we got back to my car, we exchanged silly presents--I got him a toy ambulance that lights up & makes sounds since he is an EMT, and also a stuffed fox because he is "foxy" (yes I'm corny, so sue me). He gave me a bunch of random things, like a candle and tube socks and a teddy bear and chocolate. It was a good mixture of funny and romantic gifts, and I loved it. Then, we kissed for awhile (don't worry, I didn't do anything stupid! haha), and it was absolutely ELECTRIC. By the time I left to drive home, it was 1:00 am! I didn't get home until past 3:00! I had to stop and get a 20 oz coffee during the drive haha.

Basically, this date was fantastic, and we have decided to keep dating. I am really excited about it. He works crazy hours and I have school and we live 2 hours away, but we are going to try and make it work and see what happens. I feel like all of the old feelings from 3 years ago have come flooding back, but Ben and I are both more mature than we were then. We are in a better place to try and make it work. I feel like he is my best friend and I can tell him anything, and we have similar interests and quirky sense of humor.

So, I'm going to try not to get my hopes up TOO much, but I am really hoping this works. I have been single for about a year now, and I feel like I am finally at a point in my recovery where I am ready to let someone in.

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In other news, I am back to school after the week off with no snow! It's been quite the adjustment!

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How was everyone's Valentine's Day weekend? Even if you didn't have a valentine, I hope you all managed to pamper yourselves in some small way. I even told Ben that I have to put myself first in my life in order for me to be a good girlfriend, friend, daughter, etc. And that's the way it should be! :-)

Blizzard Update!

So, I don't even know the final snow totals for here in Central Maryland, but let me tell you--it was A LOT! Between last week's storm and this week's storm, we have AT LEAST 3 feet out there! In fact, YESTERDAY was the first day I was able to leave the house. And the plows didn't even make it to our neighborhood until 9:15 at night! Insane!

Here are a few photos I snapped when my parents and I braved it outside on Thursday evening.....

my house! (this is AFTER my dad cleared the way with the snowblower, of course!)


and here is my dad, all bundled up, standing by a pile of snow:

and, here's mom and me:


Anyway, tomorrow is Valentine's Day! I have plans to meet my date for dinner and a movie :-)
I'll update you after it happens, but it is NOT the ex, just so you know....