My weight is up over 3 whole pounds this week. ED is FREAKING OUT, making me feel huge and blubbery and sometimes I think I'll never stop gaining!
However, I was also up to 3 Ensures a day, which is like 1,000 extra calories a day, so DUH, of course I've gained. It was just weird because yesterday my jeans were really tight. My mom is excited though and wants to take me shopping so I can get new clothes that actually fit me. So, I'm just going to try to learn to love this new womanly body of mine and take my mom up on her shopping offer!
Anyway, I am still about 7-10 pounds from my final goal. But I am sure it will happen soon.
IOP's going well. 2 of my favorites got discharged yesterday (SO sad), BUT we also got 4 new members this week, and I'm really excited to get to know them all. One woman was IP with me, so it was nice to see a familiar face this week.
Things with my family are going much better. We are leaving Tuesday at 5:30 to fly out to Meridian, Mississippi, where my older brother Ryan is getting winged! He is a marine corps 1st lieutenant, and we are all incredibly proud of him. I'm kind of nervous for our trip because it means that every single meal will be spent out, even breakfast, and there is also a fancy ball with a dinner and stuff. However, with my weight gain, some of my gorgeous gowns from high school proms and stuff fit again! So at least I'll have something to wear. I'm nervous about social eating and my meal plan and all, but I think it will all work out. I am trying to stay positive.
I already have to start figuring out my schedule for returning to college next semester. I'm hoping to be able to graduate with a major in psychology and a minor in creative writing, and it might even be possible to have a major in both, which would be AWESOME!
Well, I'm going to go relax and watch TV before IOP (relaxing is something I've gotten very good at recently. You all should try it!). I am hoping to post before my trip to the bro's house, but if not, I'll be sure to post afterwards with lots of fun pictures!
I've been following your blogs and I am impressed with all of you. Keep up the positivity and good work!
P.S. Have a ghoulishly HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! I don't have any plans, besides giving the kiddies candy. I love the adorable kids and their fun costumes. I also plan on pumpkin carving with my poppa!
So good to hear this! ED can freak out, but you should be so proud! And don't even think about eating less now or skipping things in your meal plan!!! Keep up this good work and keep fighting that stupid ED. You will become even more beautiful and you're doing amazing. Stay strong, xxx Julia (Taste of Living)
ReplyDeleteOh Coco your strength is amazing! I hope your proud of yourself for getting this far and making so much progress. A shopping trip sounds like a perfect reward for all your hard work, and you will look so much better in those new clothes now you are getting healthier ;)
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your time in Missippi with your brother. Sounds like it will be challenging but exciting all the same! Good luck.
xo Hannah
I'll be giving out some candy too! Hehe!
ReplyDeleteRelaxing? Haha perhaps we both have a major in relaxing at the moment??
x
i am right here behind you pretty girl!
ReplyDeleteyou can do this and i am so proud of you for being where you are now. have a wonderful halloween that you can enjoy and participate in!
loads of care
xoxo
It's ok to freak out a little, but remember you are doing great!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment about eating more normally :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on regaining your health!! Hey, any excuse to do some clothes shopping has gotta be good, right ;) Just know I'm with ya on trying to embrace the womanly form! It's NOT meant to be so scrawny and pathetic. It's meant to be HURM HURM xD