If anyone is still out there reading my sporadic and rather random posts, I commend you!
So, as for my life--I am recovering from my surgery and am doing well. I was out of work for 2 weeks but have been back for a few weeks now and am in the swing of things. Thanksgiving was relaxing and it was nice to see some family that I hadn't seen in months.
The boy and I have moved in together, and it is going wonderfully. In fact, it's creepy how perfect things have been so far. In fact, today is his birthday!
Last weekend the man and I went and got a real, LIVE Christmas tree. This is a big deal for me because my family used to go cut down our own tree when my brother and I were little, but we stopped doing it when we were in middle school. I absolutely love the smell of the fresh needles every time I walk in the door. S and I had a great time decorating and we love lighting it up every night while we cozy up on the couch.
Anyway, as for my recovery, things are just so-so. I feel like I'm at a standstill. My weight, although it fluctuated a bit after surgery, has been stable for awhile now. And I am totally comfortable eating (and drinking) in most social situations without guilt or worry.
But, I feel like I haven't made a 100% full recovery--is there such a thing? I know part of it is me letting other things take priority--my job, my family, my boyfriend--and I know it is up to me to do the hard work. But I guess I've just gotten to this point where I'm comfortable, and I need to push myself just a little bit harder.
For example, I have to admit to myself that I could stand to gain a few pounds more. And I know I should be going to therapy regularly, and I haven't been for the last few months. I don't really know why I stopped. I have plenty of excuses in my head, but when it comes down to it, my eating disorder recovery is IMPORTANT and I don't know why I've gotten so apathetic about it.
So, I definitely have some goals for the coming weeks and months--and what better time to set new goals than right around New Year's, right?
I am going to try to take even the smallest steps toward getting back in the game as far as my recovery goes. Whether that means pushing myself to try some new foods at the office Christmas party, or even just calling my therapist to set up an appointment...I really think it will make a big difference.
On an unrelated note, I also am going to make a more concerted effort to blog regularly (we'll see how that goes), and some career changes are possibly in my future (more on that in a different post).
How is everyone else doing? Getting ready for the holidays?