Today is Sunday, June 14th, which means there are exactly 7 days--1 week!--until my 21st birthday. I am planning on going into Baltimore and going to the bars with a few of my friends. BUT my birthday is also on Father's Day, so I'll have to get home early enough to hang with my dad!
Things have been up and down lately, emotionally. Finally went for my first appointment at Sheppard Pratt's Eating Disorders Center. It actually went fairly well and the woman I talked with was super nice. I have my first nutritionist meeting bright and early tomorrow morning! Which I really think I need, because I've lost a pound in the last week which doesn't make any sense because one of my issues lately is binge eating at night and not being able to stop!
Last night I went to see "The Hangover" with my friend Sasha. It wasn't very good--at all. Funny at times, but mostly just wildly inappropriate. Call me old-fashioned, but I don't really want to see men's balls and pictures of women giving guys blowjobs when I go to the movies! I mean, seriously. But it was nice to see Sasha. We were super close in high school and I hadn't seen her in 2 years!!! She came over after and we ended up sitting in my room talking til 1 in the morning.
My parents got into a big fight and today they were having a serious discussion about divorce. I swear I'll freak if that happens. They've been married 26 years and I always thought things were so great, but I guess life isn't perfect. *sigh*
Anyway, I'm getting sick of this whole ED thing. It's like, even when I'm not thinking about food, it's still always there in the back of my mind, and I'm still constantly concerned with how I look. Sometimes I'll think I'm way too skinny, and other times I feel bloated and fat and ugly and disgusting. And I am so lost still in terms of what I should be eating. Today for breakfast I had cereal w/ granola, strawberry cream of wheat, and a Luna breakfast bar, but it just seemed so random and not very satisfying. Hopefully the nutritionist can help me pick things that are tasty and satisfying and still healthy.
Well, I'm off to take a shower and go shopping for a gift for my dad for Father's day! Happy Sunday, and take it easy :-)