Friday, August 28, 2009

Today is the Day...

Today I pack up my car and head back to Susquehanna University for GOOD. For my SENIOR YEAR OF COLLEGE.

Where has the time gone?

I am scared, nervous, anxious, excited, happy, sad, all at once. I know I am in a much better place now mentally, but I still need to keep my guard up and make sure I do what's best for my health and continue to put recovery first. I used to use school and studying as an excuse to not eat, etc. (sooo lame, I know), but not this time!

And, someone very wise told me to not only nourish my body, but my mind and soul as well. When I look back on my senior year of college, I don't want it to be how focused on calories and exercise I was, or how many extra credit projects I completed. I want to look back and think about the times I spent with the people who mean the most to me. I want to look back and be proud that I followed my heart and my passions, and that I found a purpose other than being the "thin one". I don't need to be the skinniest girl in the room. I just need to be ME. And that's what I plan on doing this semester.

Wish me luck, ladies! I'm sure I'll be blogging often anyway, as my schedule is pretty kickass (as in, my FIRST class on some days isn't until 3pm! muahaha being a senior kicks butt!).

I've been having a hard time with weight gain recently, but I know I can't slip again. I don't WANT to, first of all, and second, I am coming home every Saturday to meet w/ my counselor, who will weigh me. I want to gain the weight back and kick ED's bootay so I can go on living my life and conquering my dreams!!!

5 comments:

  1. I wish you luck!!!! It sounds soooo exciting!!

    And keep the positive thoughts, I'm sure you can kick ED's ass! :)

    xxxxxx

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  2. That must be really exciting to be going to do your senior year. You've gotta keep up with your eating though to give you the proper energy to make it through your classes and also to go out with your friends.

    I like your plan of just being you, thats the most important thing, to be yourself and do the things that you want to do not waht your ED tells you to and not what you think you should be doing. Yes definitely work hard because thats important but make sure you also go out and enjoy yourself and live your student days to the full! I really do believe that they could be some of the best days of your life so dont let them slip by.

    You can do it, kick ED to the curb once and for all :-)

    xoxo

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  3. Hey!
    I'm actually a sophomore at UConn...and I'm living in upperclassman housing, simply because I "have connections". Isn't that great?!
    Last years residence halls were ABSOLUTELY terrible! I got lucky this time =]

    <3

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  4. you will do great in senior year!
    head up! smiles! confidence!
    Have an amazing time!

    lovin' your blog! xoox

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  5. I wish you all the best! Your post is strong, maybe you should read it to remember what it's all about if things get a little difficult?
    But I have faith in you! You can definitely do this! And enjoy it! Go for it! xxx Julia (Taste of Living)

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